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Two more years and it'll be 111111 :D

Going out with 姐妹s later on hehe. That means I have to miss my dental appointment, again. But I've decided to go there and tell the dentist to change the appointment, cause it's been so long since I last go to check/clean/blah my teeth. My wisdom tooth/teeth is/are making my teeth go crooked :( :( :( :(! I have always dreaded to go for dental appointment, scary and pain, but this time, for my teeth's sake, I think it's better for me to go and change my appointment lol.

Sometimes I really don't feel like even stepping out of my house, zibei only. What if it didn't change? Would I feel better? Or would I take it for granted?

Should I go wedding dinner tomorrow night, or stay at home to study chinese?

Anyw, Kacengs kind of wake me up. I've been expecting too much from others, must expect more from myself. I guess I've been blaming others for what had happened, haven't I think that I was at fault too? I've been way too selfish. Sorry.

Need to jiayouxxxx!!


XX.

Lost.

I'm lost, very lost now. Please pull me back on track again (now). :(


I hope I can be shut out from the outside world now. What's gotten into me? I'm troubled yet I'm not, cause my mind is blank.

And I'm going to be blind soon, I guess.




God, help me please :'(

心很乱

My mind has been really messed up, confused, full of questions and . . Can you understand? One minute I'm thinking of this, and the next minute I'll ask myself why am I thinking of that, stop thinking of that and the next minute, I'll start thinking why I was thinking of what I was thinking then. Say it's confusing, it's not confusing. Say it's simple, it's not simple. I can't even concentrate properly. I'll get distracted super easily. I spend most of my time, daydreaming. I feel like screaming now. I need to 心淨, calm down, relax, why am I thinking so much in the first place? Maybe I'm suffering from SAD? Okay, rubbish.

#1 thing to do now: Sleep.